“For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline.” – 2 Timothy 1:7
Fear – an unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that someone or something is dangerous, likely to cause pain, or a threat:
When I was about 15 years old I sang in a choir at church. I was the appointed choir director for our small youth choir. This was the year that Sister Act II came out. I thought it would be great to sing the movies version of Joyful, Joyful. You know the one that has that rap in the middle of the song? We practiced and practiced. When we were finally able to sing the song, we sang it with so much excitement because it was on our level. After we all sat down, the Pastor got up and rebuked me from the pulpit. He stated that “this kind of devil music would not be allowed in my church”. THAT was the very moment that I allowed FEAR to win the fight. I never sang in church again after that day.
What I didn’t realize was that not only did I allow FEAR to win over my gift of singing, I allowed FEAR to win over so many other areas of my life. Through the years God has given me a glimpse of all the things he has in store for me, but my FEAR has forced me to back away from so many opportunities. There are young girls who have reached out to me for advice, guidance, or just some encouragement, but my FEAR has caused me to build a wall that would leave me untouchable.
About a month ago, my husband sat me down and said “You have given so much of yourself to push other people’s dreams, and goals, it’s time for you to start pushing your own dreams”. I knew he was right but I couldn’t admit how much FEAR had a hold over me. I began to read my word and read devotions about FEAR. I began listening to sermons about FEAR and realized that I could no longer allow it to dictate my purpose.
Today I have made up my mind to jump and trust that whatever may happen, God is going to catch me.
Isaiah 41:10 says; “So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” (NIV)
I may not know where God’s taking me. I may not know what happens next. I may question whether or not I’ll be safe. But I know that I can count on the One who did not make me timid, but gave me power, love and self-discipline.
Lord Jesus, push me! I want to go higher with You! I want to know the fullness of life that comes only when I’m planted in Your will. Help me trust You and follow You wherever you lead, that I may experience the joy of Your salvation. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.